The power of positive affirmations and choosing to be happy again.
The power of positive affirmations.
I initially started writing this post over 2 months ago now. The working title and idea was all about I felt so lonely. More lonely than I've ever felt and I felt completely and utterly broken. I felt like nothing would ever feel better, like I would never be able to even begin to start building myself back up again, and that I'd be stuck feeling heartbroken forever with no way out.
And now? Now I feel the happiest I've felt in 15 months. I feel happy and excited about the rest of 2018, and I can't wait to fill it with wonderful memories spending time with my closest friends, living back in my favourite city, and smashing through the goals I set myself for the rest of the year.
I knew that I'd lost myself somewhere along the way over the last few years. I can't really pinpoint where, when or how, but I just knew that I had. This broken, teary-eyed girl that was looking back at herself in the mirror every morning, just wasn't me and I knew that I had to get the happy-Soph back somehow.
I would wake up and immediately tell myself that everything was shit and that it would never get better... and unsurprisingly, it never did. Now, I feed my mind positive affirmations every day, I remind myself of all the lovely and exciting things that I have going on in my life. I remind myself that I am enough, and that just because one chapter of my life came to an end when I didn't want it to, or that certain things didn't quite work out how I'd planned, it doesn't mean the rest of my life has to be sad or a miserable mess.
I chose to get my happy-self back, to remove everything from my life that was making my sad, anxious or feel like shit, and started to focus on me. If I hadn't have made this choice just over a month ago, who knows how much worse I'd be feeling now. Of course, there are still days when I have a blip and I have a little cry, but we have to have bad days to have the good days, right?