Why I've started writing a diary.
I've started writing a diary.
I’ve always wanted to write a diary, of sorts. I started a few when I was younger but they never lasted more than a week. 10 year old me would get distracted with something else after that. I was always inspired by those teen-girl dramas where the main character would religiously write in a pretty hand-written diary. The thing is, I’ve never thought I could write. English was always one of my weakest subjects at school, having always been more of a numbers girl than ever having a talent for words, and sometimes I struggle to put onto paper what I’m trying to say and I get all frustrated.
I follow a lot of wonderful blogs - written by incredibly talented girls who have such a lovely and poetic way with words, that my own blog and writing always feels terribly inadequate.
My blog has certainly helped. Writing consistently for nearly four years will do that, I guess. But, like everything I try my hand at - I always want to be better. I don’t know whether it’s the perfectionist or competitor in me that always feels the need to be better, but I do.
And so I've decided to start writing a diary.
I want to improve my writing and by keeping a diary, I can write more regularly. Sometimes, when I sit to write my blog I feel like I have nothing to say. Nothing that's worth a pretty photo and sharing with the internet, anyway. A diary, however, gives me the freedom to write the simplest of things that happened that day - whether they're 'blog worthy' or not. Hopefully, I'll be writing all of the time, and it can be a skill that I can improve as I go along.
There are also some things that I simply can't publish on my blog. Sensitive or confidential information, or things that are a little too personal for the whole world to potentially read. But, writing is certainly a way of therapy for me. I like to write things out to clear my head and make me feel better, and so a little outlet just for me is perfect.
I've just bought a new desk too that I wanted to use straight away, and I've had no internet or TV in my flat for over a week... so I half started it for something to keep myself occupied other than aimlessly scrolling through Twitter on my phone and reading my book!
For now, it's nothing special. There's no pretty embroidered notebook on my bedside table or bullet-journal style pens and books, it's simply just a word document on my laptop. After all, this one is just for me.