Who actually am I? I think about this all the time. Particularly when you're in one those terrible group sessions and you're asked to give an 'interesting fact' about yourself and your mind always goes blank and the best you can come up with is how you won a gymnastics medal once in Year 2. Or, I often think about it when I read other bloggers bio's, or see people tweet interesting things about themselves, and I'm often left wondering... what's my equivalent?
If I'm honest, I feel a little lost, right now. I've just started a new job, but I don't actually know what I want to do or achieve with my life. I moved out of my hometown over 4 years ago, because I knew that I absolutely didn't want to stay there for the rest of my life. But now I've also just moved from Liverpool and I'm not feeling like I quite fit with London.
So, where do I fit? What do I do with my life? Who actually am I?
I started thinking about this a few days ago, and started to think about what I actually do know...
I'm a Taurus. Which means;
I'm stubborn and persistent.
I like writing to-do lists and being organised and having a colour co-ordinated calendar but also leaving everything until the last minute all at the same time, because I actually work best under pressure.
I need stability, routine and comfort.
I get easily stressed.
I'm sensitive and loving and will absolutely do anything for anyone I care about.
If we're going off the Myers-Briggs test, I'm an INFJ-T;
I'm an introvert - if I've been surrounded by people all day, I just need to go home and be by myself.
I'm warm, caring and generous.
I often let my feelings make decisions for me, rather than my mind.
I'm creative, insightful, determined and passionate.
However, I'm quite a perfectionist and can burn out pretty easily.
Both of these things and definitions and 'tags' sum me up pretty well, and most definitely do a good job of describing my personality and traits. But, and without this being a total cliche, I guess I'm still not quite sure who I am.
Do you know that question that they always ask in movies - 'what makes you tick?', I'm not terribly sure how to answer it.
I mean, I love blogging and walking and taking and editing photographs. I have this drive in me to be successful and I thrive off doing things well and aiming to be the best. I love architecture and beautiful buildings and learning about their history, I love planes and boats and I always want to know how everything works.
I guess what I have to remember, is that I'm still only 23. I have so much ahead of me that will inevitably change and shape who I am, that maybe I should just focus on enjoying the now, instead of worrying too much about the bigger picture. But then, at what point do you start worrying and trying to figure it out?