I'm not sorry for being sensitive.


'It's both a blessing, and a curse, to feel everything so deeply.'

'I'm sorry.' Two words that I say a lot. And I mean, a lot. I can't really help it, they kinda just come out. I think I say them because there's a part of me that is terrified of the thought of someone being angry or annoyed with me, so it's a natural mechanism for me to try and prevent that from happening. 

But, if there's one thing that I've learned not to be sorry for, it's for being a sensitive soul.

I'm sure anyone that knows me will agree that I am indeed, a little sensitive. I mean, I cry at everything. Okay, not everything, but if there's anything even slightly emotional on tv, you might wanna provide me with some tissues just in case. 


But, being sensitive doesn't just mean that it's easy to make me cry. It means that I deeply appreciate the little things. It means that my head is often a creative buzz, overthinking and empathising with situations and people that I barely know. It means that I have a high awareness of what others may be feeling, and a desire to make sure that they're okay, and not hurting like I have in the past.

THE HIGHLY SENSITIVE SUFFER MORE, BUT THEY ALSO LOVE HARDER, DREAM WIDER, AND EXPERIENCE DEEPER HORIZONS AND BLISS.

That's the thing, though. It probably is a lot easier to hurt me than it is others, because I take everything to heart. You may not mean anything by what you say, it could be an off hand comment, or an action that you don't think twice about. But to me, it'll get stuck in my head, and I'll replay it over and over until I'm an emotional mess wondering what I did to upset you.

But the reason I get like this, isn't because I'm weird, or crazily attached to you, it's just because I care. I care about people easily, and I'll care about them a lot. Sometimes, I really wish I didn't, because it wouldn't hurt so much when it becomes clear that someone else doesn't, but I do and it's a big part of who I am.


Quite often, being seen as emotional is depicted as a sign of a weakness. But to me, I don't see that at all. I see it as me being genuine and honest with you. I'll tell you anything if I decide to put my trust in you, and I'll most definitely not do anything to hurt you. I couldn't. Because I couldn't live with the pain and the guilt that I would feel afterwards. And if you, or something is hurting me, I'll tell you.

The thing about being sensitive is, it's the constant mix of highs and lows. We feel them both, and we feel them a lot. Each day can be a complete mix of feeling incredibly happy, to feeling upset & hurt about something.

So no, I won't apologise for being sensitive. But, that's just me, and I'm not scared to let other people see it. 


Soph

14 comments

  1. Beautiful post; I'm definitely with you in the sensitive department. People can be cruel but they can also be wonderful. You keep doing you Sophie, you're brilliant! x

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  2. Im totally with you on being sensitive! Its something I don't hide anymore either, we are all different for different reasons :)


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  3. Beautifully written! I am very sensitive as well, although I am still shy about it. The thing is that when I get mad, I cry, when I am overly happy, I cry. And every single time people think I am sad or there is something wrong. But I am very glad to be sensitive as well, when I can understand other people easier and help them out! :)

    Lii

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  4. This is an amazing peice

    Boo
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  5. macklemore said something similar - i don't know if it comes from a song or it was just him telling this, but yes, I agree A LOT!

    big hugs sophie
    xx from italy
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  6. Such a great post, I also feel so much pressure to not be sensitive and act like I dont care sometimes because i feel like its the norm now!

    Abigail Alice x

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  7. lovely lovely post! I always assume my over sensitivity comes from my anxiety and my boyfriend is always telling me not to say sorry for things! I take things to heart so much and can easily get upset or think about nice things people have said to me for ages as i just find them so sweet!
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  8. As usual, such a wonderful post. I'm not massively sensitive, until I am and I over think etc etc. I'm not sorry for it because I actually think you need to be not made a stone sometimes. Also, you look gorgeous! xx

    Sam // What I Know Now

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  9. I feel exactly the same.. well done hun!

    xx Lisa
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  10. I love this so much. As someone who can relate to being overly sensitive (and i'm male!), I feel like I shouldn't be sorry for who I am. Great post!

    Aftab
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  11. I can totally relate. In fact, I'm planning on writing a post about this, so I am glad I came across your post.

    I have always been a sensitive soul. I was always made to feel as though sensitivity was a sign of weakness, and I was always expected to bottle up my feelings instead of dealing with them properly, but I am one of the strongest people I know.

    I used to feel ashamed of being sensitive, but over the past few months I have gradually started to embrace it. Sensitivity doesn't mean that I am bad, wired wrong or weak. Sensitivity means that I can connect with others on a personal and emotional level, and it means I can feel in touch with the world around me. Sensitivity means that I am able to take other people's feelings into consideration. Sensitivity enables me to show empathy for people that I care about, even if I can't relate to their problems. Sensitivity means that I can love, dream and care. Sensitivity means that I can feel extreme passion and enthusiasm.

    Sensitivity shows that I am human.

    :)

    Chichi
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  12. I never ever used to be senstive and i hated it, now i cry alot! Also, i relate alot to apologising, i do it so many times a day x
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  13. I'm so glad to have found your lovely blog and this post really speaks to me. I empathise wholeheartedly with you! Xx very best wishes. Xx Ps. Beautiful pictures

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  14. This was such a heartfelt and genuine post! I completely agree, I can be a little too sensitive at times but I wouldn't change that about myself, and I'm glad you feel the same way!

    Sending light and love your way!

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