A believer in fate.
A lot has happened and a lot has changed very quickly. A lot of things have clicked into place in my head and there's been a lot to process. It's been rather a steep learning curve, if I'm honest, and I'm still not entirely sure where I go from here to stop myself on missing out on something that I know could be pretty awesome. And the thought of that at the minute is making me a little sad.
One of the things I've come to realise is that fear can make us all do different things. It's this little voice at the back of our minds that forces us into self-protection mode. It convinces us to do things that aren't logical. Thing's that don't quite make sense to anyone else, no matter how much we try to explain it.
It throws us back to situations and experiences we've had in the past, things that haven't been great, things that have hurt us and that we don't want to ever happen again because we're not sure if we'd be able to cope this time around.
EVERYTHING WE WANT IS ON THE OTHER SIDE OF FEAR.
I have a really small tattoo on the inside of my wrist, you guys might have seen it on Instagram, it's of a little cross, and I used to hide it underneath my watch strap, but now I always make sure that I can see it.
A lot of people always ask me what it means, and to me it's a reminder to let your faith be bigger than your fear.
It's a reminder that whatever happens, things are going to be okay, and you can cope with whatever life throws at you, if you believe that you can.
I believe that there's no such thing as coincidence. When I look back, there's far too many things that have happened that have lead directly onto something else, shown me something unexpected, but something that I can't imagine having not experienced now.
And I guess it's time for me to put my faith back into all of this, because it's always the 'what if's' that drive us crazy, right?
DON'T STRESS THE COULD HAVES. IF IT SHOULD HAVE, IT WOULD HAVE.