Things I'm grateful for #5

Things I'm grateful for #5

Happy Sunday you lovely lot!

This has been a bit of a weird week. There's been so many ups and downs I've kinda lost track a little bit. There's been a lot of unexpected things happen too, all of which I'm still not entirely sure how I feel about, but that's probably just me being super wary of things and people!

Anyway, here's this week's look back.

Work, work, work. | I have so many mixed feelings about this one, but, as many of you know, I'm currently kinda looking for a whole new career. I feel lucky that I've been able to make this decision with the support of my friends and family behind me. Change can be scary, but I'm so excited to try and find something that I love to do. 

On a similar note... | I had such a lovely client this week. I read Lou's post yesterday about working with clients, and how sometimes, they're not exactly all a walk in the park to deal with. But the people I was working this week where just so great, it definitely made my week that little bit easier.

All things blogging bud's & MK | This seems to have taken a very 'work' direction this week, so soz 'bout that. But the week coming up I'm working in Milton Keynes. Considering I live in Liverpool, this is just  a little bit of a trek! So, I had a two options. Stay in a hotel, or stay with Em. Two guesses which one I picked? ;) It's going to be proper lovely to see Em again and I can't wait!

Health | January has been an incredibly sad month. As I'm sure you're aware, we've lost some amazingly great people to illness recently. Each time such sad news hits my Twitter feed, it always hits home just how lucky we are to be alive and well. 

Have you felt lucky to have anything this week?


A mind dump.

A mind dump.

I've been thinking A LOT recently. I know, I know, those of you that know me are gonna be thinking, what's new Soph? You think all the bloody time. But for some reason, things have buzzing round in this head of mine a little more than normal. 

So, I'm going to go back to my old style posts. The ones where I kinda just write. A mind dump, kinda thing. And well, add a few pretty photo's in there just y'all don't get too bored...


It's funny how things change, don't you think? How life can throw things at you that you least expect. How all of a sudden you're not entirely sure what you want anymore. Some of these things are influenced by other people and other things, but sometimes, it comes from you. You have these thoughts pop into your mind, and even you sit there and think, 'where the bloomin' hell did that come from?!'

It's funny how one little thing, that is totally irrelevant and meaningless at the time, can lead to something else that ends up meaning a lot to you. Do you ever sit and think of an event that happened, a situation you were in, or someone you have met, and think back to all the little things that led up to that very moment or meeting that person? I do, a lot. 

And it's thinking about this, that particularly in the last year or so, has led me to believe so, so much in fate. I am a firm believer that, as cliché as it is, everything happens for a reason. There's lessons to be learnt behind everything that happens to you, and everyone that walks in, and out, of your life. Sometimes these reasons can take a little longer to make themselves known than others. Sometimes it's hard to try and find the good in a bad situation, but there will be a reason and a lesson.

It might feel so totally, utterly and completely crap at the time, but the not-so-great things that happen and the mistakes that we make are only going to teach us something. They're going to enable us to become wiser, and stronger, and know exactly what to look out for so that we don't make the same bloomin' mistake again. 

If you haven't clicked off this yet then kudos 'cause I'm still not sure where I'm trying to go with this...

I also think about how many great things have happened in the last year that I never expected. The people I've met and have begun talking to. Contacts that I've made and the experiences that I've gained. I've started a new way of thinking, and have taken risks that are so out of my comfort zone, the Soph 12 months ago would've thought that I've completely lost it. 

But that's just all part of the fun.

I've started to try and not steer clear from change, like I used to, and instead embrace it and all the new people and experiences that come along with it. Because at the end of the day, if we don't try, we don't know what we might just be missing out on, right?


Wardrobe essentials.

Wardrobe essentials.

It's no secret that I love clothes. Far too much. I buy way too many and my wardrobe is currently overflowing. Is that gonna stop me buying more? Probs not. But what can you do, a girl needs clothes.

I thought of this post idea while I was having a good old tidy up of everything in my room, and I'm not sure whether to make it into a mini series, we'll see how this goes down first, I think!

Basically, my idea is to share with you guys the items that I believe are essential to every wardrobe. And in doing so, I'm hoping it might show me which items I wear constantly/all the time/probably too much, and it may help in creating that capsule wardrobe I've been dreaming about. 'Cause if I don't see it as essential, what's the point in keeping it, right?

So, the first few pieces that I kept out, and laid perfectly on the bed to make it look like I totally know what I'm doing, are these few pictured above.

A cosy knit is definitely a must, and you guys have seen this mustard H&M jumper multiple times now, so soz 'bout that, but it's just so damn cosy. You can pretty much wear jumpers with anything, which I think is why I'd class this as an essential; jeans, leggings, tights (depending on the length, obvs), even pyjama's if we're going particularly loungey...

Layering up a jumper is one of my favourite things, and what else better than a classic white shirt. Working in an office, a white shirt is my go-to when I really can't decide what else to wear. It's suitable for the office on it's own, but I also love wearing it under a jumper for a bit more of a preppy look. And again, a white shirt can be so bloomin' versatile that you can create any number of looks. An oversized one never goes amiss either. 

Jeans. Jeans. Jeans. I don't think you can ever have too many pairs of jeans. They're literally all I live in outside of work. I was recently introduced to Topshop jeans, courtesy of Tash, and that's it. I'm converted. They're officially my favourite. 

A good pair of trainers. I think I squealed a little when trainers first came back as being 'fashionable' a few years ago. There's so many reasons to have them, they're practical, comfy, waterproof (most of the time), versatile, the list could go on. If there's one thing you should invest in, it's a good pair of trainers.

A trusty handbag. Okay but with the amount of crap useful stuff that I carry around on a daily basis, a handbag is deffs an essential. I recently purchased this absolute beauty from Zara. I'm always so, so pleasantly surprised at the prices of Zara bags, I always expect them to be so much more than they are! This (not-so) little one was  £30. I think. 

What would you pick out as an essential?


Things I'm grateful for. #4.

Things I'm grateful for. #4.

I literally can't remember if this is number 4 or not, but I'm too lazy to go look so here's hoping I can count. 

January is flying by, isn't it?!

I can't believe that we're into the back half of the first month of 2016. If this is an indication of how fast the rest of the year is going to go, I'd rather it didn't. Like, can we just stop, now?

Anywho, this week has had a right mix of things going on, so I think I'm just gonna dive straight into this one!

BILLS. | No, not that kinda bill. This week marked the week that I ate at Bills restaurant for the first time and omg. I've been told that this is an amazing place for breakfast, but me and Tash headed over after work one evening for some well deserved grub after a long day. Oh, and we managed to bag an extra serving of chips and after getting super excited at omg free food, we then barely touched it 'cause we were far too full. Typical.

Writing somewhere else. | This has been in the pipeline for a few months now, but after finally getting over some technical difficulties, I've started to take my writing a little further, and I officially have a post up somewhere other than my little blog which is super exciting. You can see the post that I wrote here.
Seeing this has made me really want to push this even more, so I'm currently working on another opportunity that I'm even more excited about and I can't wait to share. EEEEP.

Blog opportunities. | On a similar note, ever since I've upped my 'blog game', if we call it that, and have started more regular posting, I've noticed a massive increase in emails that have popped through to my inbox. While this means even more admin to get through, it genuinely makes me smile every time it happens, and I'm hoping to collaborate with some really cool people soon. EEEEP. Take 2.

Payday. | I don't think I need to expand on this one.

How's January treating you all so far?


By oneself.

By oneself.

Happy Friday team! We did it. We actually made it to the end of the week!
It's no secret that I'm the kinda girl that totally doesn't mind her own company, and I'm completely okay with that. The weekend mornings when it's just me, in bed with a cup of tea and my laptop are sometimes my favourite.
However, there's always times when you find yourself on your own, and you're just like, omg I have nothing to do and  no one to do anything with and I just need to do something before I go insane. Right? Well, here's a little list of a few idea's that I sometimes find myself getting up to when it's just me, myself and I.
Walking into a coffee shop, and plonking myself down in a corner by myself with my laptop (and a coffee, obvs. If I'm gonna use their wifi I should at least buy one...) is now basically just a way of life for me. I do it because I like to get out the flat, I like to be around people, (even if I don't actually want any of them to talk to me) and I like the flutter and background noise that comes with a good ol' coffee shop.
Trust me when I say that no one even bats an eyelid to you being sat there by yourself. It's 2016. SO many people now 'work from home', that particularly in the city, it's such a regular occurrence it's totally normal, and the only time you ever get disturbed is when the poor old Grandpa next to you can't figure out the wifi.
Shopping. Don't get me wrong, I love a proper good girly day out with my friends when it comes to going shopping, but I also love going by myself. I love that you can go wherever you want, spend however much you want, and spend however long you need to deliberating over whether you actually need that 7th sweatshirt in 3 weeks. (Answer: yes.)
Art, museums, and all cultural things. How many times have you been out, and spotted a number of people walking around just themselves and a camera? I love just taking myself off somewhere, and the beauty of being on your own is that you can do exactly as you please.
Netflix. 'Nough said.
Going to the gym is definitely something that's socially acceptable to do on your little ownsome. Even if it's not generally the first choice on your list. It gives you something to do and has health benefits. What else do you need, right?!
Blog. Well that one was bound to come up.
Do you guys like to do things by yourself sometimes? Let me know your ideas!
Sophie Rosie: A blog & a blogger

Sophie Rosie: A blog & a blogger

Whether we're the ones that are reading the blogs, writing the blogs, or the pour souls that get dragged round to take photo's of said bloggers and then have to wait 10 minutes before you're allowed to tuck into your breakfast 'cause lord knows what would happen if we didn't get a perfectly Instagrammable shot from this, blogging is so personal to each and every one of us.
Thinking about this got me thinking about who I am as a blogger, and what kind of blogger I want to be. Basically, I came to the conclusion that omg I'm so far away from what I want to be that I could cry a little and start over. But I won't. Promise.  I'm fully aware that I'm probs being a little over-dramatic here, but just humour me for a sec, k? Cool. Thanks.
If you caught me on Twitter a few days ago, I was talking about the fact that there are so, so many blogs out there at the minute, and it's this that is part of all my motivation to continue to improve everything about this blog. My writing, content, imagery, the lot.
I want to be totally relatable to the people that pop over and visit here. I want my blog to be visually spot on. I want my photographs to be perfect every single time, and I want my writing to be interesting, quirky and funny (alright, alright, no need to look at me like that, I'm working on that bit.).
I love my blog, don't get me wrong, and I'm super proud of how much it's grown and changed in just over a year. But, as with most things, I know there's so, so much room for improvement, and the Impatient Annie in me wants to just get to a place where I'm happy with it right now. Like, right now please and thank you.
I want to be a lifestyle and fashion blog that's positive and happy. I want to share with you all the things that I'm loving right about now and give you idea's about goodness knows what and be totally real with you guys and I'm pretty much babbling again, aren't I? Soz.
What I'm trying (and completely failing) at saying, is that I don't feel like I've found my 'blogging place' yet. I don't feel like I've found 'my style' and that makes me a little sad.
So, this is gonna be what the next few months are dedicated to. I'm not going to put a post up unless I'm totally and utterly and 100% happy with everything about it, and I'm going to try and make sure that there's a bit more consistency around here. Hopefully.
Do you feel like you've found your place?
What it's really like to live with a blogger.

What it's really like to live with a blogger.

I'm gonna throw this out there on this one, and take a guess that most of you reading this are bloggers, right? And we all know that we have our little quirks, but you don't actually realise this until you live with someone else who's totally comfortable to spend hours on Twitter and knows all about the perfect Instagram struggle.

There's certain advantages to living with a blogger. Obvs if you, yourself are a blogger. If you're not, the constant 'ooh, I need to take a flatlay of that!' and 'sorry, I can't, I've got tweets to schedule' would probably drive you up the wall.

But, if there's two of you, it's just great. There's no need to struggle with 6,547 out of focus photo's from your tripod when you actually have someone else who knows how to work a camera, and having to schedule in a few minutes before going out for selfies is just another part of the day.

So, here's a little insight into some of the kinda things that go on in our 'blogger flat';

Is this my memory card, or yours?

OMG did you see what whats-her-face posted on Twitter today? 'Cause if not you need to 'cause the blogging community has just blown. up.

Will you help me take a flatlay on the bed please? In the name of Instagram. Obvs.

'Do we have any plans this weekend?' 'Well I've got about 67 outfits that need shooting...?'

Thanks for liking my Instagram photo pal.

'Do you follow this person?' 'Not sure, what's their blog name?'

Text message: 'If you get back before me and the tv is dismantled on the floor. Do NOT be alarmed. I was using the white stand for blog photo's. Soz."

*Spends every evening blogging with a cup of tea.*

Instagramming every coffee and cake date just isn't an issue and is fully expected.


Do you have a spare camera battery? This video NEEDS filming and the light just won't wait for my charger.

*Joins in blogger twitter chats from opposite sides of the sofa.*

Will you just read this? 'Cause I think I'm hilarious but I don't know if it comes across enough in the post.

I need to quote retweet this tweet you've mentioned me in but I can't think of anything funny and omg I'm running out of time before this is weird. Totes should have thought of this before.

'Such-a-body followed and unfollowed me. AGAIN.' 'Me too mate. I think I blocked them this time. '

*Both walk out of bedrooms in practically the same outfits.... ALL CHANGE.


The Sporty Edit.

The Sporty Edit.

As any of my old high school pals will tell you, sports was just not my thing. Nah-uh. Nope. P.E was one of my least favourite subjects at school, unless we were doing gymnastics or dancing. Those were the only two things I was good at and I was more than happy to leave it at that please and thank you. 

However, I can't help but love this Adidas jumper. I spotted it in Urban Outfitters a few days ago, and ummed and ahhed for a few minutes as to whether I thought I would actually wear it. As I was running out of time, I just grabbed it and figured I could bring it back if I really hated it. 


I really like the sporty-casual look that it creates, when paired with my favourite Joni jeans and trainers.

Speaking of these trainers, they were £12. Yes, £12. From the wonder that is Primark and omg I'm not even having you on when I say they're THE most comfy things ever. They have like, memory foam soles inside them and everything. Genuinely. Not joking. Go get a pair. You can thank me later.

It's not the thickest jumper, in fact, on the Urban Outfitters site it's described as a 'long t-shirt', so you'd deffs need to layer it up when it's a little colder. But all the same, I love that it adds a bit of a different look to my normal style, and I think it's convinced to experiment a little more when it comes to my clothes!

(Justification for this purchase? It's versatile. Totally. Like, you can wear it with your pi's too, right?)


Thing's I'm grateful for #3.

Thing's I'm grateful for #3.

Happy Saturday people! 

Now, I know what'cha gonna say, it isn't Sunday so why are you posting this today Soph? That was deffs the first thing you thought, right? ;) Well, internet friends, I have a post going up that I really wanted to go up tomorrow, so I thought I'd just have a bit of a change up of the schedule this week!

This week has kinda flown by if I'm honest! For once, I can't actually believe that it's the weekend again already. Not that I'm complaining or anything. I mean, if anyone wanted to pass a law for every day to be the weekend then I'd be totally cool with that. However, I'm not too sure there's much exciting happened this week, it's just been kinda one of those, 'meh, let's just get on with it' weeks, if ya get me? Probs not. 

Anyway, here's a little brainstorm of things that have been great this week!

Early mornings | You probably already know from this post that I'm a morning person. But if there's one other benefit to getting up and out early, it's the morning sky. I took this on one of my drives to work this week (whilst I was sat, stuck on what feels like my second home at the minute... the m62.). Isn't it pretty!

My flatmate | Now this is kinda the topic of tomorrows post (in a totally non-weird way, I promise!), but writing the post made me realise how awesome it is to have Tash as my flatmate. Not only do we make each other laugh constantly, but when I come home from work, throw myself on the sofa and shout 'TASH I'M HAVING GUY DRAMA', she instantly shuts her laptop and turns to listen (and laugh, more often than not) at the fiasco's that I seem to find myself in. Thanks Tash. Love ya.

It got cold! | You're probs thinking I've lost it with this one, but I love that it's finally got cold! I love that I can wrap myself up in all the layers and feel all cosy and go for a walk outside. There's just something about crisp, winter mornings that I love. If only they'd have appeared before Christmas!

Eating clean | Attempting to start as I mean to go on here, but the last few weeks I've come to realise the benefits of eating cleaner. I've tried to completely 'cut the crap' (as Jessie so amazingly put it in this post) out of my diet, including my morning coffee, *sobs*, and I've noticed the benefits so, so quickly! Both physically and mentally. I can tell that my stomach is flatter, but I also feel like I have a lot more energy at work, which is great!

What great things have happened to you guys this week?


How I organise my life.

How I organise my life.

The title of this post is a little ironic, considering my life is probably the most unorganised it's ever been. But we'll forget about that, pretend everything is totally fine, and crack on with the post. 

Yeah? K? Cool. Thanks.

I'm the kind of person that at least needs to feel organised, even if I'm not. So sometimes it's the little things that, to me, make the biggest difference in keeping myself a little bit sane, and not running off to hide under my blanket to hide from everything that comes with being an adult. 'Cause who needs the stress?

So I thought I'd collate a little list of things that help me along on a daily basis.

1. Funnily enough, first thing first is making lists. Who would get anywhere without making lists? And lists of lists. And more lists of lists. My list pad is a god send at times, and it's the perfect way to keep track of everything you need to do. And there is nothing more satisfying than putting a gigantic big cross through something on there. Take that, life.

2. Next, is to get yourself a diary. My memory can be terrible at times, so 'mental notes to self' aren't always the most efficient way of trying to get myself to do something. Particularly if it's something I don't want to do. Is selective memory a thing? If it is, I have that.

3. Basically, PLAN. I'm definitely a planner. I like to know exactly when things are, where they are happening, how it's gonna happen and what it is. I feel so much better if I have set plans in place, whether it's a work plan, a life plan, or just plans on the weekend.
I remember being sat in my GCSE maths class, when our teacher first came out with this absolute cracker of a quote; 'Failing to plan is planning to fail'. I can't remember how to use the sine rule to find the length of a side of a triangle, but I remember this. So at least there's that. 

4. Budget. This is such a responsible adult thing to say, but honestly give it a try. Before you set yourself up a little budget, spend a week, or a few days noting down everything that you spend. And I'm talking everything. Every chocolate bar, every cup of coffee, every pretty notebook that you convince yourself that you need. You'll probably surprise yourself at just how much you do spend! I know I did! (Side note; would you guys be interested in a 'how to budget' blog post?)

How do you guys get organised?


The right kind of people.

The right kind of people.

Right now, if you were to ask me what I want from my life, I'd probably have to give you a bit of a cliché response, and say that I simply just want to be happy. Happy in myself, and happy that everyone around me is happy.

Final answer. I think.

We all want to be happy, right? I mean, I don't think any of us would purposely, or consciously do something that would make ourselves unhappy. Like eating broccoli. Nah, I kid. I mean, broccoli does make me upset, but I'm try'na be serious here. C'mon Soph. Focus.

So, why do we sometimes let other people make us unhappy? Who are they to dictate how we feel?
Why do we let certain situations make us unhappy because we simply can't be bothered, or because we're scared that we don't have any other plan in place?

I told myself at the beginning of the year, that my mission 2016 is going to be, for once, to do things for myself. To start to focus more on what is best for me, and start to put proper plans in place as to how I'm going to go about doing this. The first few weeks, I've started out focusing on my lifestyle, such as finding a new job and eating cleaner, whilst still making sure that I have the time and the money to treat myself every so often too. 'Cause a girl still needs a caramel latte with whipped cream and some new shoes every once in a while.

What I haven't really thought about up until now however, is the people that currently make up that lifestyle. I've said SO many times before, but I genuinely have some of THE best people in my life at the moment;

I have friends that are there for me no matter what or how long it's been since we've seen each other.
Friends that I can talk to about absolutely anything and that I know won't judge me one little bit.
Friends that know exactly how to make me laugh and cheer me up.
Friends that say things how they are, which at times is very muchly needed.
And friends that seem to have so much wisdom and knowledge already that I don't know how they're not like some kind of life coach or something.

But, I also still talk to some people who make me anxious. People who I'm afraid to say certain things in front of for fear that they'll just shoot me down. Friends that always have to have 'one up' on me. People who do and say things that I know are completely wrong, but I don't say anything because cutting people out of my life is hard and just not something that I'm used to doing.

Towards the end of last year, I reduced contact with someone who used to make me anxious. They didn't make me anxious when I was speaking to them, but it was afterwards, or when they weren't talking that would make me concerned. I was SO worried about what they thought of me and I didn't realise quite how much my relationship with this person was affecting me and getting me down.

Now, we talk every now and again, and it's great. We have a little joke and I'm not worrying over whether they took it the right way or not or omg did I really just offend them cause they didn't reply. 

This is something I need to start doing more, and learning that your relationship with someone may just be hindering your happiness rather than enhancing it.

Surround yourself with people that bring something positive to your life.


Do you get nakd?

Do you get nakd?

Considering it's January, and it's the month of the lets-at-least-try-this-healthy-eating-thing-for-a-few-weeks thing, I thought this would be the perfect time to wap this review up.  So, here we go...

Eating healthy when you've still got at least 5kg worth of Christmas chocolate still lingering in your cupboard is always going to be a difficult feat. Not to mention the fact that due to the copious amounts you ate over the festive period, you're now always hungry. But, internet pals, here's a little alternative idea in the form of these healthy snack bars

Nakd bars are made by our friends over at Natural Balance Foods, and, in their own words, are 'just raw fruit and nuts cheerfully smooshed together'. How could I say no to trying them after that?! Smooshed. 

Between Tasha and I, we thoroughly enjoyed munching our way through the whole case! After a little (read; completely mahoosive) debate, we concluded that our favourite flavours were the Berry Delight, Cocoa Mint, and Cocoa Orange bars. Basically, we couldn't narrow it down any further. So if you're reading this and thinking of trying them, we're saying try all three 'cause it'd be rude not to and you'll thank us for it later. Promise. 

The bars are a proper good sized snack, they're light but filling, and they definitely stop those terrible cravings when you're trying your best to detox and all that. Also, look at the colours! And bakewell tart in a healthy form. What else do you need?!

The bars are also gluten, wheat, dairy & GM free, so if you're looking for a simple, natural, and healthy alternative to kick-start that health-kick of yours, we'd definitely recommend picking up one of these bars next time those Maltesers are eyeing you up and the till.


These bars where sent to us by Natural Balance Foods, but all opinions & thoughts are completely our own.
Thing's I'm Grateful For #2.

Thing's I'm Grateful For #2.

Happy Sunday guys! I've actually made it to number 2. This is an achievement for my blog, like seriously. 

This week has been such a good week for so many reasons, and I'm so happy 2016 seems to have got off to a good start! Here's my look back at a few things I've been happy to have this last week.

I can drive. | My job at the minute involves a lot of travel, and on Monday I was sent to Bangor. Yes, of all places, Bangor. It's just over 80 miles from my flat, and on a Monday morning I was so so happy that I didn't have to climb on three trains just to get there. Thanks little car. You did good.

The gym. | Yes, yes, I know what you're probs thinking. This is just another new years resolution that won't last. BUT my dear pals, I'm determined to keep this up. I've been going to the gym for a while now (albeit on and off at some points), but I get such a buzz off waking up the morning after feeling all achey! And it also makes me feel a lot more confident and great about myself. It kinda also helps that it's only a 3 minute walk away - no excuse!

My friends | Part way through this week I had a bit of a wobble, and to help I wrote this post while I was going through it. In the morning I woke up to some absolutely lovely and supportive messages from some of my friends, and I always feel so so happy and lucky to have the people around me that I do! So thank you.

I took the first step in doing something for me. | I don't think I can explain this one just yet, which may seem a bit cruel, so I'm sorry! But, this week I did something that was scary, exciting, nerve-wracking and incredibly brave, but it's made me so happy! Hopefully I can tell all soon. But you might have to just pray for me in the process. 

What have you been thankful for this week?


That mustard jumper.

That mustard jumper.

I've posted this jumper on Instagram twice in the last week, and both posts have become two of my most popular posts to date! So, considering it seems to be a popular choice, I thought I might as well get a blog post out of it...

I received this jumper as a christmas present from my parents, and I was most definitely pleasantly surprised when I opened it! My Mum & Dad tend to stay away from buying me clothes. Apparently my style changes too much. Soz. 

But, this jumper has become one of my favourites. It's perfectly oversized, cosy, and comfy, and makes for the perfect choice in this miserable weather.

I've paired my jumper (which is from H&M, I think! - similar here), with my new found favourite Topshop jeans, a white roll neck, my Topshop rucksack that I bought for my holiday a few months ago (similar here), and these awesome boots which I managed to bag for less than half price in the Next sale (similar here)! 

I've not worn heeled boots in so long, mainly because my old ones are rather un-comfy, bit I'm a little bit in love with these ones, so expect to see them a little bit more often on the good ol' blog!

Did you receive any winter staples for Christmas?


I feel broken.

I feel broken.

I feel broken. 

I feel broken, and lost, and lonely. 

And silly. Because I know that this is just a bout of whatever's going on in my head, and by morning I'll be just fine again. But it hurts. It makes me curl up under my blankets and cry.

It makes me feel like I need an hour long hug but there's no one else here.

It makes me want to apologise to everyone I've ever met, for causing them any trouble. For every minute that they've spent talking to me, making plans with me, wasting their time on me, when they could've been investing their time in someone else. Someone better. 

I feel like I constantly let people down, get things wrong, and that I'll never be good enough, no matter how hard I try. 

I get overwhelmed easily. If someone's nice to me it's like my head can't cope with it. There must be a catch. 

I want to be the best that I can be for everyone, but I'm just not sure if I'm able to.

I don't mean to get things wrong. 

Writing this is making me feel better though. Strangely. 

It's late and I still feel a little bit broken. I wish that this wouldn't happen. I wish I didn't have to bother those people that are so nice to me when I feel like this. It's not their problem, and they don't owe me anything to have to listen to me while I try and explain how I feel. 

Sad. Anxious. Broken.

But they do. They listen, talk to me, distract me, make me smile again, just a little. But it's a little and it means I'll be okay.

I'm okay.

I finished writing this at about 2 AM this morning after hours of feeling like this. And now? I'm totally okay. I've been in two minds as to whether to actually post this, or just keep it for myself, but I think I want to. If only on the off chance that someone reads this who can relate. For the possible reassurance to anyone that you'll be okay too.

It's okay not to be okay.
My 2016 blogging 'to-do' list.

My 2016 blogging 'to-do' list.

Alright, I know I'm about 2 weeks late with this, and you're all probs totally fed up of seeing this kinda post. But um, well, tough. 'Cause I forgot to schedule it on time so you can all have it now. Soz. 

I've decided to have a 'to-do' list for 2016, rather than a set of resolutions or goals, in order to motivate myself a little more, and, mostly, for that incredible sense of achievement you get when you cross things off one of your many lists that we all have lying around. 

Or stuck around, if you're me. I have sticky notes stuck to my wall to remind me to do stuff. Surprisingly useful technique!

While I think I'm going to keep my personal 'to-do' list to myself, I thought I'd share my blogging list with you guys, if only to keep myself motivated by the fact that you all now know. And, tbh I do tend to lose the sticky notes...

1. Before we even start, this one may be a little ambitious for me, but I'd love to try and get content up here at least 3 times a week, and if I'm feeling extremely organised, to try and get some sort of schedule going too. But we'll see how the first bit goes first...

2. One of my 'categories' for my blog is health, although I haven't exactly posted much to this yet. So, I'm going to incorporate more posts relating to healthy eating and fitness, and hopefully this will mean that I'll actually get back to the gym for the 5th time in 12 months. Here's hoping.

3. Get into a routine of scheduling tweets. This is something that I've yet to even really get started on, but I know how much good, and how much less hassle it can be, to schedule tweets ahead of the next few days. So I'm going to schedule in time to schedule some tweets!

4. Reach 5k on Twitter and Instagram, and 2k on Bloglovin. Social media is the highest traffic driver for my blog, so growing my following on here will hopefully boost my blog stats a little more. The bloglovin' goal is definitely super, super ambitious, but hey, I'm gonna give it a go! (If you wanna help a gal out, you can do so here ---> Twitter, Instagram, Bloglovin) Sorry. Had to get those in there. ;)

5. This one, now this one is a bit of a whacky one, and is probably gonna be lingering on my list, un-ticked forever. BUT I'd love to one day be someone's favourite blogger (Dad, you don't count). How awesome would it be to hear that someone really, really loves what you do? I have so many blogs that I check daily, and I always wonder if one day one of those blogs could be mine for someone else! I use this thought to motivate me to constantly work on my content, writing, photography, and everything else that goes along with blogging on a daily basis!

So, there we go! My blogging to-do list for 2016. What's on your list?
Although tbh I've probably already read all of your posts. So maybe link me your post instead?


Monochrome vibes.

Monochrome vibes.

A couple of months ago, I vowed to myself that I was going to create a capsule wardrobe, in a bid to try and be all organised and chic and so that my wardrobe would totally be Instagram ready were anyone to open it to take a photo... cause that totally happens. Not.

Safe to say, the 'capsule' part of that plan didn't really work out. I still have far too many clothes, so maybe I should add that to this years to-do list. But we'll see 'bout that. What I have kinda stuck to though, is only buying clothes that I know are going to be versatile. Like this shirt that I found lurking around in New Look.

The monochrome design is what first caught my eye, but I also love that although it's a casual piece, worn with heels, you could definitely rock it going out if you wanted. I've worn it with heels here, but only because I fancied wapping them out for a change. Most of the time you'll see me in casual dress cause my days of going 'out out' started and stopped at 18. I'm deffs more of a Netflix and chocolate on the sofa gal when it comes to my Saturday evenings. Wild. I know. 

As with most of my outfits during the winter months, my camel coat is the first thing that I reach for if I'm heading anywhere outdoors, and I love that it makes almost any outfit look that little bit more elegant and 'put together'. And, as always, my red lipstick and trusty Daniel Wellington are the other two accessories that I very rarely leave without.

It feels like it's been so long since I've done an outfit post and I totally forgot how much fun they are!