Turning 21.





So today I turn 21! 

21 sounds like I have to be an actual adult now, which although in someways having gone straight into full time employment nearly 3 years ago, having bills and rent to pay, and complaining how much of a pain in the bum council tax is on a monthly basis, you could say I've been in the adult world for a while now. But still, 21 kinda makes it official, right?

But do you know what, I'm actually SO excited for the future. My life's changed massively in the last 3 years, so who even knows what my life will look like by the end of the next 3 years. Although I'm not sure how I feel about thinking about 24 year old me... that really is a scary, scary thought!

I made a promise to myself the other day that I'm going to stay positive and appreciate the most beautiful things in life each day. This is what happened the other day. Not only did I have the most fabulous and giggle-filled day with Becca, we happened to stumble across this gorgeous park in the middle of Liverpool. There was hardly anyone else around (excusing the few passers by who did give us a few strange second glances..), the sun was shining, the surroundings were just lovely and the blossom falling off the tree's was beautiful! (Oh, and I think Becca's found her new calling in life as a lifestyle photographer. What dya reckon?!)






There are still a few times when I'm around certain people, in certain places and in certain circumstances that I still feel like I'm not me. I still feel like I have to conform to people's expectations of the old me. The girl I was when I when left college and first ventured into the 'real world' at 18. This isn't me anymore. I don't get to show everyone who I am. Yes, I may still be quiet at times but I've developed an inner confidence from somewhere that not everyone gets to see. But I'm determined to make this change and (try) to be less care-free and enjoy life to the fullest! No matter where I am, or who I'm with. 

I'm also determined to stop living in the past. Forget the people who don't matter anymore and focus on the ones who do.  I have the best people in my life at the minute, and I need to stop letting things from years gone by affect me and my relationships with others in the now.

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle, life is a maze, and love is a riddle, I don't know where to go,  I can't do it alone, I've tried. And I don't know why. Slow it down, make it stop. Or else my heart is going to pop. Cause it's too much, yeah it's a lot, to be something I'm not. I'm just a little girl lost in the moment, I'm so scared, but I don't show it, I can't figure it out, it's bringing me down, I know, I've got to let it go. And just enjoy the show.  - The Show, Lenka.

I'm determined to make turning 21 the best day, and see it as a new, fresh and fabulous start. 





Soph

48 comments

  1. Happy birthday!!! Stunning photos you're so beautiful!! x
    Aisling | Aislings beauty bytes

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  2. Happy Birthday Sophie! This post (once again) struck so many chords with me. I know exactly what you mean when you say you have found an inner confidence but not everyone gets to see it. I am beginning to learn though which people bring out the best sides of me and I am definitely happiest with these people.

    Lovely photos! I hope you have the most fabulous day turning 21 that you deserve :) (I also appreciate the Lenka reference - its a song that has a lot of special memories for me :)

    Sarah xxx || www.whatsasssays.com

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    1. Thank you so much Sarah! I'm glad you can relate to my posts too ha! I hadn't actually thought about that before, about being happiest around the one's who bring out the best sides of you but it really is true!

      xxx

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  3. Happy birthday! You look so fresh and beautiful. I like that song by Lenka too btw!

    GARNETIA

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  4. Congratulations. Beautiful words - stay positive! Much love, Sjoukje.
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  5. Happy Birthday Sophie :)
    A wonderfully positive status, really beautifully written!
    Rosie
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    1. Thank you Rosie! I'm glad you liked it :) x

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  6. Happy Birthday, I really do hope you have an amazing day!
    Jodie xo // JodieLoue

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  7. Happy happy birthday! Very beautiful photos and dress, the flowers are a great touch. x
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  8. Happy birthday my dear!

    Lovely pictures :)

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  9. Happy birthday! You look gorgeous in these pictures. So good to see that you are appreciating the beautiful things in life, happiness is so important x

    Amanda / Amanda's Escape

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  10. Happy Birthday to one of the genuinely loveliest people! :)
    xxx

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    1. Emma! Thank you so much! You're so lovely :) xxx

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  11. Happy birthday! You look beautiful in these pictures :)

    Sarah | sarahanne14.blogspot.com

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  12. Happy Birthday lovely! I hope you have had the most wonderfully special day. 21 does sound so grow up doesn't it? But remember you are still so young and have your whole life ahead of you! :) ps. you look absolutely gorgeous in these photographs! You have a body to die for, lady! :)
    Nicole xx / Life in Ginger

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    1. Thank you sweet! Ahh that's so lovely! Thank you!

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  13. Happy birthday lovely! I hope you had the best day : ) Those photos are bloody gorgeous, Becca did a fabulous job ;) xx

    Jessie | allthingsbeautiful-x

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  14. Happy 21st! You look gorgeous in your photos x

    Talia // floral-anchors

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  15. You look so beautiful :) I hope you had a wonderful day!

    Liza x

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    1. Thank you Liza, I did, it was lovely! x

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  16. Happy birthday lovely, and what beautiful photos!xx

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  17. YOU SO PREEEEEEEETTTYYY. Hope you had a lovely birthday, would love to see you soon <3

    Kayleigh xoxo
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    1. Eeeek love you Kayleigh! I know! Need to sort something!

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  18. I seriously can't get over how gorgeous you look in all of these photos. You are a beautiful person Sophie, inside and outside. I love you lots and lots my beautiful little friend <3

    Emma xxxxxxxxxxxxx
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  19. lovely dress and pics :)


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  20. I'm so late on this, but happy birthday dear!! You look absolutely gorgeous in these photos! That dress is just perfect! Trust me I wish I was thinking about 24, I'm getting closer and closer to 30 and I'm just dreading it!

    I'm so happy for you as you start living with a new outlook! I've been trying to be more positive, but it can be hard living and working with those who aren't quite as positive. But really as you said it should be no matter where you are or who you're with. I wish nothing but the best for you! And I hope your day was the best yet! :)

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    1. Haha thank you so much! I really know what you mean, but yeah it should be! Thank you sweet! :) x

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  21. Just found your blog and it's so beautiful! Happy birthday xx

    Hannah Rose

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  22. You look stunning is all of these Soph. Beautiful beautiful person on the inside and out.

    Lou
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    xxx

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    1. Oh thank you so much Lou, need to meet you in person sharpish! :) xx

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  23. I just found your blog Sophie and it's got such a lovely aesthetic! Lovely pictures and a clean layout. I'll definitely be coming back. Sophie xx
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  24. Sophie you look gorgeous! I hope you had a wonderful birthday lovely :)

    Hannah xx

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